by in Love

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.” – Psalm 139:13


I still remember the first time I picked the yarns (of pink, blue, purple and white), started crocheting and being filled with so much excitement. I worked on it nonstop, watched it take shape until we had to leave for the Philippines to visit my family for a Christmas vacation. It sat there until our return… or even way longer than what it should have, unfinished, because the life that blanket I was trying to make for, was taken away from us earlier than what we would have wanted.


While silently grieving, I initially worked on it half-heartedly as my mind and hands needed something to get occupied with. I made tons of mistakes, I pulled the yarns back and started over from where the error took place. It taught me focus and patience as I still longed for it to be perfect just the same as our unborn child that we wouldn’t be able to hold and see. I have learned that moving forward was the only way I can see the beauty of it. I cried and wept with this little warm blanket as it seemed to respond with comfort, assurance and love that all will be well. And eventually, it did. I call this beautiful creation the hope blanket as it gave me what I needed the most during those trying times in my life.


On this Mother’s Day, I am finally parting with it (the memories stay with me) — to give someone the same comfort that it gave me; to lift up another mother who had lost a pregnancy; (or) to someone who has the desire to be a mother but struggles with infertility; (or) to a woman needing patience and understanding and for my little angel to watch over you and remind you that there’s hope… always.


I created this in pink and blue because I firmly believe that no matter what the gender is, you will feel and receive the same joy within your soul.


The only thing I will ask is for you to share your stories (or nominate someone) in the comment box so that we can help women who struggle with miscarriages, infertility or any hardships with motherhood realize that they aren’t utterly alone in this world. I will pick one woman in random (because all stories are beautiful no matter how it is told).

Happy Mother’s Day!


Much love,


P.S. If you are wondering why I won’t keep this for Eli, it’s because I made one for him, too and that stays with him. 🙂

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  1. Ann May 05, 2016 Reply

    I am not joining as my children are now in college. I am a knitter myself. Very beautiful blanket and deed. May it find the right person. Good luck.

    • Joyce DZ
      Joyce DZ May 06, 2016 Reply

      Thank you so much! I hope so too. However, if I won’t get any comments, I do have a wonderful person I can give this blanket to. She has a very special place in my heart. 🙂

  2. Beth May 06, 2016 Reply

    Will you care to share the pattern? Thank you very much.

    • Joyce DZ
      Joyce DZ May 06, 2016 Reply

      If I can find it, I will share it. Thanks much.

    • Joyce DZ
      Joyce DZ May 13, 2016 Reply

      Here you go:

      Hook size: I

      Row 1: With blue, ch 183. (To make it bigger, work in multiples of 15 or to get the symmetry, multiples of 30)
      Row 2: Sc in second st from hook, * Sc in each of next 14 ch, 3 sc in next ch, sc in each of next 14 ch, sk 1 ch, repeat from * across, ending with the sk 1 st, sc in last st, ch 1, turn.
      Row 3: Working in back lp of sts Throughout, sc in first sc, sk 1 sc, * sc in each of next 14 scs, 3 sc in next sc, sc in each of next 14 sts, sk 2 sts, repeat from * across, ending last repeat with sk 1 st, sc in last st, ch 1, turn.
      Repeat row 3 throughout, working 6 more rows blue, 8 rows of white, 8 rows pink, 8 rows purple, 8 rows blue again, etc until you reach the length you want your blanket. You can change the width of your stripes as well.

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